Just now I had thoughts that I don’t think I’ve had in years, things I thought I’d never think again. That I don’t want to be a Christian anymore. That it would be easier to just give up. I suppose it is easier, then again I don’t know what one would live for if not for God. For myself? No I don’t want to do that either…
I feel so pathetic. I wish I wasn’t so ruled by emotion. I wish my husband was here. 😥
Those times are hard, and yes they suck. We are human and as such doubt and other things fill our mind at times. You’re right though living as a christian isnt easy, and you could say that living without God will be easier – in this life at least. We are told it will be hard, but to look foward to what we will recieve. A slogan we came up with last night at bible study was ‘Eyes on the Prize’, I like that alot. Remember what has been done for you, that we can listen to Him through His word, and that you can always talk to God about anything…