I did my presentation yesterday. It was okay. I remembered what I was going to say. I started with this picture:
which got a good response. I was speaking about the difference between humans and primates being caused not so much by how much of our DNA is different but how our genes are expressed.
While I was speaking there was a very learned and well-read teacher/researcher there and he looked like he hated me and what I was saying. Half way through he left because he got a phone call. He didn’t say anything so I don’t know what he thought, I hope what I said wasn’t wrong.
Before hand I had quite a panic attack. I got really hyper and had to leave my French lecture early. I thought I was going to forget everything. I had also forgotten my usb key so I had to get hubby to email it to me and then I emailed it to the lecturer who put it in his usb for me.
I feel bad this morning. Such a headache and very sleepy! I was so tempted to go back to bed but I thought hubby would ask too many questions. Then again this state of being would count as sick I guess. I’m going though, it’s only a half day, maybe I’ll sleep when I get home.
Update: That intimidating lecture gave us a lecture today. He was using schizophrenia as an example of something at one point and said how he thought a more interesting question (in relation to twin studies on genetic predisposition) is why people that are genetically disposed don’t get the disease. He then muttered something about not being convinced by the presentation yesterday about gene… and he sort of trailed off. So I’m both disappointed and quite angry. I’m disappointed because I think that he’s a very intelligent man who is to be respected, and I think he now thinks badly of me. I’m angry because I don’t know exactly what I was supposed to be convincing him of. I wasn’t presenting my own thoughts, I was talking about an idea, a theory, hypothesised and tested by other people that I thought was a bit interesting. By no means do I think that it is definitely correct nor do I think if it is correct that it’s the only mechanism of evolution between the specific species I was reading about. I’m upset and at the moment I really don’t like him because he wasn’t even there for half the talk and he’s making judgements about things I don’t think I said. I don’t want to not like him. Maybe I shouldn’t take things so personally.
