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It seems to be one of those days when I just want to cry.
I had a lot of trouble last night trying to shake the feeling of worry and dread from my head and stomach. I believe it was related to my genetics assignment and how my results don’t make any sense, and how I can’t log on to the remote computer to get more results. I hate this Genetics course! People always say how interesting gentics is and in theory I agree, at the end of highschool I wanted to be a geneticist. I decided to do Molecular Biology because it had genetics in it but it had other things as well, I wanted to keep my options open. Well learning genetics sucks! It’s all about statistics and tests and gene mapping and the program we have to use for this assignment is completely user unfriendly.
Erns, who is very cool and loves Jesus, is reading through Daily Bread bible studies. He wrote on his blog about Matt 6:25-34 and said how DB said “By worrying we declare that God is not to be trusted”. I wish I found this encouraging right now but I just can’t. Not because I think I can’t trust God, I do trust him, with my life, with my soul, but God never promises that we won’t fail uni. He doesn’t say “Don’t worry, if you get sick and miss classes or don’t understand a lecture I will implant the knowledge and reasoning in your brain.” I don’t understand the genetics lectures on statistics, they were dry and boring and at 0900 on Mondays. I don’t understand the assignment because I don’t understand LOD Scores, either that or my results are not what I thought they were going to be and I’m interpretting correctly but they themselves are wrong. Ho hum.